I thought...

I thought you were different, but you turn out to cheat my beliefs.

You're just the same as everyoneeee.

Those who weren't there when I needed them. Yes, them.

Those who spat on me when I needed their help.

I guess, it's my faith.

My life sucks waayyyy more than a person can ever have.

Screw my life man. Why I needed a second chance to live, when I have to see all this happening before my eyes?

God, why didn't you just take my life away the day you created this problemmm?

It would be alooooot more easier than this. And you know it.

I don't know, how long I can go through all this but if one day I close my eyes for good, just remember that I did love you, I do love you and I always will love you, alive or dead (:

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‎Just for a thought,

I wonder, when you look into my eyes and watch my heart shatter, does it break your heart too, even crack it a little bit?

Or do you enjoy hearing to my heart breaking into pieces watching your actions towards me?

What have I even done, for you to do that to me?

Isn't dying just better than all this fuckery?

I was being considerate, but you made me seem like being inconsiderate is better.

I was being loving, but you made me seem like being cruel is better.

What else can I do. I just don't seem to understand why.

I've left everything behind, thinking that I would continue it with you.

Just as I thought, I'm fine and I was happy that I actually could live my life again,

You killed me that very second. Yes you did.

I'm not complaining, or asking anything from you.

I just want to justify myself.

I just want to have a clear explanation.

I just want to know is being considerate wrong?

I just wanted to you to be happy for god damn's sake!

Whining away now isn't gonna change anything, I know.

I'll show you what you've just lost. I'll shove it in your face.

That's a promise.

I've watched you do things. So now, you watch me do things. Fair enough, isn't it?

Time

Time is the only thing that i can count on now,

Yes, it feels like shit when you actually think you're about to die,

I know how it feels like, but i kept it to myself all this while.

I tried smiling, I tried covering all my sorrows,

but whats the point when i'm burying all my happiness, with my own hands.

I wish i could turn the clock around to those happiest moments of my life,

where friends and love were present,

now i'm just like a body waiting to depart from it's soul,

i hope i'm not gonna face it,

at least not these soon,

if God does exist, he would want to show me some happiness.

For all that were part of my life, or still are, I wish you guys the very best in life.

Don't waste a second of your life, live it to the fullest,

ask me how i feel like when my life is gonna be pulled out of me anytime soon.

Depends on the next appointment i have.

I really hope, really do hope, I'll get a second chance in life. I'll live it to the fullest, with happiness. No sadness and sorrows anymore. Please god, Bless my soul, if i'm running out of time.

Amen

If this is love,then I want it.

If this is said to be love, then I want to feel it.

I want to lead life like the others.

Why must I feel like shit, when things aren't the way I think it is?

Damn! those people around me.

Whatever they say, is not gonna bring me down.

If you were not the one then why does my hand fits yours?

Goshhhh. I want things to be back to normal. Just a note to myself.

I'm not gonna think about anything anymore. Lol.

I hope!

i feel like shit..

i don't know why is it whenever i see those pictures and those posts she made for you,

i feel like throwing up,

i get angry,

i feel that maybe she was the one for you and not me,

i just feel like shit okay.

exactly how i felt the day i was in the car with you,

the day i found the truth from the inner you.

why must it be her and you still keeping in touch with her family even makes it worst.

i just cannot get it out of my fucking head, no matter how much i try.

it's like i can't breath.

i can't sleep.

all i do is think about what else you hid from me.

prolly there'e hell alot of stuff you hid from me.

i'm feeling the pain.

it's like it's choking me, it's stabbing me into pieces.

everytime i think about the shit you did.

with that fugly bitch.

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

i feel like screaming my lungs out right now, because i just saw something my cousin brother showed me.

it's seems like she did really love you at first.

it's like i'm just a fucking replacement for you to move on.

laugh it out loud bitch, you had him before i did.

i wishh, and only wish i could cure this pain.

but anyways, i'm in the search somewhere i could find happiness.

with or without forgetting that shit.

Teenage Dream

You think I'm pretty
Without any makeup on
You think I'm funny
When I tell the punchline wrong
I know you get me
So I let my walls come down, down

Before you met me
I was a wreck but things
Were kinda heavy
You brought me to life
Now every February
You'll be my Valentine, Valentine

Let's go all the way tonight
No regrets, just love
We can dance, until we die
You and I, will be young forever

You make me feel
Like I'm livin' a
Teenage dream
The way you turn me on
I can't sleep
Let's run away and
Don't ever look back,
Don't ever look back

My heart stops
When you look at me
Just one touch
Now baby I believe
This is real
So take a chance and
Don't ever look back,
Don't ever look back

We drove to Cali
And got drunk on the beach
Got a motel and
Built a fort out of sheets
I finally found you
My missing puzzle piece
I'm complete

Let's go all the way tonight
No regrets, just love
We can dance, until we die
You and I, will be young forever

You make me feel
Like I'm livin' a
Teenage dream
The way you turn me on
I can't sleep
Let's run away and
Don't ever look back,
Don't ever look back

My heart stops
When you look at me
Just one touch
Now baby I believe
This is real
So take a chance and
Don't ever look back,
Don't ever look back

I'mma get your heart racing
In my skin tights jeans
Be your teenage dream tonight
Let you put your hands on me
In my skin tight jeans
Be your teenage dream tonight

Yoooouuu
You make me feel
Like I'm livin' a
Teenage dream
The way you turn me on
I can't sleep
Let's run away and
Don't ever look back,
Don't ever look back
No

My heart stops
When you look at me
Just one touch
Now baby I believe
This is real
So take a chance and
Don't ever look back,
Don't ever look back

I'mma get your heart racing
In my skin tights jeans
Be your teenage dream tonight
Let you put your hands on me
In my skin tight jeans
Be your teenage dream tonight
(Tonight, tonight, tonight, tonight, tonight, tonight)

Finally, it's your day today.

I know I'm not there to celebrate your birthday with you,

and things turned out this way,

It's not how we wished it was right?

Everything does happen for a reason.

If this is what it's suppose to be, then let it be this way,

I know I'm a bad person, as you said, I always hurt you.

But I really wish I did not.

All I want is you to be happy, Jif.

That's why I'm drifting away from you.

Way far where in time, you can't even reach me.

As for today, it's your birthday.

"Happy Birthday"

Have fun yeah? I know your friends would make you have fun somehow.

Wish you all the best in life, take good care of yourself.