Given up? I guess there's nothing left to say anymore.

As I said yesterday, and you've already read I guess.

So it's all good now, You live your life, I will live mine.

But remember what I said, One day you'll regret all this. I swear.

The day you do realize, please do let me know, I would be pleased to hear from you then.

It's not like I'm going to be happy, but I would be happy to know I was right all this while.

Oh and finally, you admitted your friends are more important to you, so it was true when I said,

your friends were more important than me.

Just that, at that time, you couldn't or maybe didn't want to admit.

After all, truth is always the truth.

Knowing now hurts me even more. To know that, I was with a person who put his peers first before his love.

Awesome. Than what's the point of you telling me you want me back and all that crap, when you already have occupied the space in your life with your friends in it.

Where do I come then? No where right.

You said I listen to my friends. Lol. The truth is, if I listen to my friends, I would have just forgotten you back then, I wouldn't be with you in the first place.

I know My Fucking Ex-Bestfriend told you alot about me. What I do, Where I am and all that bullshit.

But do you even know, at first, she was against you as well. When she can backstab me, whats left.

Anyways, I didn't want to talk about that. All I wanted to say was, be happy with your life. Since your friends are there for you, I don't need to bother about you anymore.

They'll take care of you very well, of course they will, they are good friends and thats why, when you smoke like crap and get wasted all the time, they don't stop you, right?

When I stop you, I would be labelled as the bad one right? Now I'm saying I don't care what you do. It's your life, your wish.

Good to know, we were once together, and I wished the ending was as retard as this. But nevermind, I believe, everything happens for a reason. All I'm gonna do is, to wait and see what is the reason behind all this.

Take care :)

A Complete Stranger

it's like i've been not blogging for ages.

just that i was drowning in my own problems.

heartache was like cutting off my breath,

each time i gasp for air.

i've been through mental torture as well.

don't worry i'm not mentally retarded yet,

but i wouldn't be surprise if one day i'm my own patient :)

i was drowning in my tears,

nobody even cared to offer their hands,

and you, especially,

just stood there, all you were asking for is me,

but have you ever thought of,

what i'm going through each and every time you do that?

at least try fixing yourself up first,

not just stand there,

yell and yell,

saying you've changed,

the truth is,

you never did, you never will sweetheart.

thats the truth.

hurting you? thats what you always say.

yes, i'm freaking hurting you.

each and everytime i do!

at least i'm admitting.

i'm not pretending

i loved you. yes i did.

but what i got in return?

and when i decided, leaving was the only option.

you showed me how much you love me,

but it's that fair for me?

when i've finally moved on with my life.

leave that aside.

lets talk about what you did recently,

you played with my feelings.

not just you.

all your friends who were apart of it.

i got all worried, at first i thought you wouldn't do it,

but when i called you, texted you, there wasn't any reply.

imagine how i felt that point?

only i know how i felt.

but then you could talk to your friends.

but not me.

so tell me, how is that loving me? or even saying you've changed?

its more like "i love my friends! hell yeah!"

thats the truth.

thats how i feel.

back then and now, just the same.

i feel, i'm better of as your friend, at least you'll care about me.

at least you'll know that i do actually exist in your world.

hurts you, hearing me say this.

it hurts me even more to voice this out.

you ignored me, so i already know that you don't want me to care about you anymore,

oh well, i forgot who i am at that point.

i'm nobody, but a complete stranger

thats why, you could just ignore my calls, a hundreds of them i gave.

but could answer your one call from your friend.

it's alright, i do realise who i am.

thats why, from today, i wouldn't care anymore about you.

at least i'll try not to.

i'm a complete stranger for you.

from this very second.

from this very minute.

what i have, that little bit i felt for you,

it's completely gone now.

thanks, for making realise who i am.

thanks :)

New Obsession

this is my new obsession

omg!

he is so effin' cute

it's like when i see him,

i keep looking at his cute face,

damn shit.

he is really really really cute

Shahid Kapoor!!!